Empty.. I'm just not that into you maybeee...

I never learned to count my blessings
I choose instead to dwell
In my disasters

I walk on down the hill
Through grass grown tall
And brown and still
It's hard somehow
To let go of my pain

Will I always feel this way
So empty
And estranged??

And of these cut throat busted sunsets
These cold and damp white mornings
I have grown weary
I spoke these words out loud 
Would no one hear me??

Will it always feel this way
So empty
So estranged??

Well I looked my demons in the eyes
Said do your best
To destroy me

I've been to hell and back
So many times
I must admit
You kinda bore me

There's a lot of things
That can kill a man
There's a lot of ways
To die
Yes, and some already did
And walk beside me

There's a lot of things
I don't understand
So many people lie
It's the hurt I hide that fuels
The fire inside me

Will I always feel this way
So empty 
So estranged??

Because I am a Woman

For the past few weeks, I have been reading a book titled 'Why Men Marry Bitches?'. Obviously I don't know how i ended up buying this book and particulary why i am reading it till the end. well, i can't deny because my main reason is to know the bitches tricks so that i could make men marry me, but after i read chapter by chapter, it seems like making myself a bitch and getting married is not my objective anymore.

I would like to share it because there are many breakups happen surround me, including myself. Women are crying for guys who dumped them! Women begs for the man who leave them, and i wanted those woman to know that changes often happen, so please don't be sad by a small clinge that happens in your life! You still have plenty of pages to write so don't stuck your story only on the first chapters of your book. Divorces happen everywhere! You should be glad because there are plenty more you can select up front.

When problem comes between you and your partner, woman always think that it was their fault that guys dumped them and they have to change themselves to make guys love them again! One thing that many women forgot is if they think and do like that then their identity will never be shown anymore. When you want a guy marry you, you have to make him fall for you, and of course making him fall in love is to let him know who you really are, and when they see something beneath you, they will marry you!

You don't have to act cute, feminim, soft or sexy, because appearance only lasts for the first 30 seconds. Let him see what's inside you, because if he doesn't love you, it's not because you are not enough, but it is because he doesn't understand the beauty lies in you thus he is not what you've been looking for.

In Sherry Argov book, she taught me how we gotta do to make men marry us indeed, but what's more importantly is she taught me to be WHO I AM, and i'm glad i did. If a man can not take care of the lady, then the other gentleman will. Sherry did not teach me to win a man heart by understand them, loving them or taking care of them, but she taught me TO LOVE MYSELF, because man loves woman who can takecare of herself and not depending on man.

I learnt to become a woman. A woman who is capable to take risk and make decisions. She did not say a woman does not need a man, she have never said tha!t but she wanted us to be as strong and independent as what we should be because We are a woman.

So,
when a guy forgets you, then don't remember him.
when a guy hates you, don't you try to love him.
when a guy leaves you, Please don't you ever stay.

Never ask a guy to marry you, because if he wants to, he will. but if he doesn't, then the others will.


P.S: recommend to read Sherry Argov book!!!

Rindu yang mencinta

sunyi ini menghantar rindu

ku merelung parasmu

dan hangat tubuhmu

yang hidupkan hidupku

kemana ku harus menghantar anganku

agar ku tersipu di tempatmu berada

andai air mata ini kan terajut menjadi benang

yang menguntai keberadaanmu, hentaskan jarak yang ada

mungkinkah ini semua salahku

yang harmonisasikan rasa

membalut asa, meski terdekap jarak

mengumbar cinta diatas logika

akankah kau merinduku

seperti ku merindumu

atau mungkin, hanya Tuhan yang tahu

betapa ku, mencintamu.. 

Berbeda

Mungkin bagimu ku selalu salah
Di hadapanmu ku tak pernah benar
Ku tak bisa menjadi pendamai di dalam jiwamu
Ku lelah hadapi semua
Ku ingin kau mengerti
Ku tau kita tak mungkin menyatu
Kini ku sadar cinta tak bisa di jalanin dengan perbedaan
Ku akui ku masih mencintamu
Dan ingin kamu
Kan ku coba jalanin hidup tanpamu
Di atas pedih yang akan ku rasakan
Kan ku lintasi hidup tanpa dirimu
Ku akan pergi menjauh karna kita memang berbeda

Sebuah Kata "SETIA"

Setia
Satu kata
Hanyalah satu kata yang bermakna luas

Apakah setia itu?
Setia adalah ikhlas menjaga hati dari lirikan yang lain, ketika pasangan jauh

Masihkah setia itu
Ya, setia itu membawa hati pasangan kemanapun berada
Dan memejamkan mata hati untuk hati yang lain

Katakan untuk setia
Tidak, setia tidak dapat dikatakan
Setia itu hanya dapat dibuktikan

Sampai kapan harus setia
Sampai raga berpisah dari ruhnya
Saat melihat sesuatu yang mulai dibenci dari pasangan

Sampai kapan itu
Sampai 100 hari pasanganmu di dalam kubur
Ketika uban menyembul di kepala pasanganmu

Apa yang harus dilakukan demi setia
Untuk selalu percaya padanya
Untuk tidak berkhianat kepadanya

Against Domestic Violence!!!

While you SCREAM at your woman, there's a man wishing he could talk softly in her ear.
While you HUMILIATE,OFFEND and INSULT her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding her how wonderful she is.
While you HURT your woman, there's a man wishing he could make love to her. 
While you make your women CRY there's a man stealing smiles from her. 

Against Domestic Violence!

Harmoni Diri

Saat syahadatku sebatas ucapan
Saat shalatku sebatas gerakan
Saat shaumku sebatas kewajiban
Saat zakatku sebatas keharusan
Saat hajiku sebatas kebanggaan

Saat itu pula
Kesia-siaan terbesar ada pada diriku

Saat islamku sebatas pakaian
Saat imanku sebatas ucapan
Saat ihsanku sebatas pengetahuan

Saat itu pula
Penipuan terbesar dalam diriku

Saat kematian dianggap hanya cerita
Saat neraka dianggap hanya berita
Saat siksa dianggap hanya kata

Saat itu pula
Kesombongan terbesar ada padaku

Saat takdir dianggap tak mungkin
Saat hidup kembali dipandang mustahil
Saat Tuhan dianggap tidak ada

Saat itu pula
Kedurhakaan terbesar ada pada diriku

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Bukankah aku memiliki jasmani ?
Bukankah aku memiliki akal budi ?